I found this on google images and thought it was rather cute!
_______________________________________________________________________________I decided that whether anyone reads it or not, I like having random blog posts so that I can read back on them after because I tend to forget my past feelings.
Graduating tomorrow :) I am actually not excited as I thought I would be - after all, I have always (semi) jokingly lamented during every semester that I wish I could fall asleep to only wake up the next day and it be the day I graduate. Technically that hasn't happened yet until I wake up tomorrow morning, but still, I thought I would be more excited. There is just such a large build-up that it will probably feel so anti-climatic at the end. Literally all this fanfare for a piece of paper. But ahh, I have had three grueling years of stress for this!
To be honest, I don't think that I can say I had soooo much fun at uni. Well, it's not the first thought that comes into my mind anyway. That's not to say there wasn't any laughter, jokes and great friends at all, it's just that I feel they were almost....overshadowed with stress! Which is quite a depressing thought, but I think that it is the nature of the particular course. And also, especially this last semester and well...more so the past two months, they are filled with sleepless nights wondering about course offers and the such.
Being in an general undergrad course for the pass three years always had that...kind of safety net thought that you wouldn't have to deal with the real world just yet. There is still further study to go. But it's the road to that second uni course that you stress about. I mean really, that particular course will ultimately be your profession for life!! Most people have known that since the start of their course, as in, those in a particular Bachelor course that when they graduate, they will go straight into the workforce. In a way, I envy that because there was always a particular direction that they were headed, whereas I felt like I was bumbling my way through a course just as I was with school - doing just because. However, I am glad as well that I have had that extra three years to experience what I would really like to do and what I don't. There is no way I would be heading in the same direction that I will hopefully be headed in next year had I not done a general undergrad course.
Anyway, I feel like so much has happened this year...the most in my whole life!! All the new people that I became friends with, new sides of people that I have discovered, real research experience, being thrown into complete new experiences, choosing what I ultimately want to work in in the field of health sciences, laughing, playing, working and who can forget all the bloody studying; has....matured me :) as lame as it may sound. I know I have the capability of making level-headed and rational decisions like a...real adult now!! (At least I like to think so). Seriously, my self-confidence has gone through a roller-coaster this year. It suffered massive drops to just depressing levels until in the end, I really just surprised myself. I think this may relate to others too...so really, don't question your own abilities too much.
Have a little faith.
