I have returned from the middle of nowhere. Right back into the family home.
Definitely mixed emotions.
I am now back somewhere where I have friends and family, but sometimes, that is the problem. Obligations. With a big, fat O. I can't just eat dinner in my own time. I can't just leave the laundry until the end of the month. I can't just leave dishes until the end of the day. I can't just eat take out when I don't want to cook. Being back in the family home, apparently means that I am running on someone else's time. Moving out isn't even an option at the moment, though I think I may explore that in the near future.
Being back in civilisation means that I can call up a friend to have coffee within the hour if I wanted. Not that I do, but it is a comforting thought.
Asian food around everywhere. That is always a plus. Wait, no, it's good Asian food around everywhere, that is a plus.
At times, I wish that I was okay with living alone in the country. Life is so much more simple there.
Monday, May 28, 2018
Sunday, May 21, 2017
Nostalgia and Reflection from the Middle of Nowhere
Hello!
Remembering the abandoned blog that I created during high school; and after a good half an hour going through the email and password recovery process, I AM BACK.
It's nostalgic to read the posts I left behind. Unfortunately there were quite a few that were deleted when I last logged in, mostly because they contained photos of people that I wasn't sure if they'd still be okay with being published somewhere on the internet. Still, I wish I made the posts private instead of deleting them. Oh well. Really though, this blog has become a diary for myself, rather than an entertaining blog for others.
So fast forwarding about three and a half years since my last post, where am I now? I did, despite all the complaints and whining about post-grad, indeed finish the four years. I am currently working in...what I classify as the middle of nowhere - in rural NSW, miles away from home.
I used to only write when I was upset or wanting to vent, so being back here writing this now, hasn't put me into that mood as such, but has definitely placed me in a reflective and pensive mood.
Self-reflection. Something that I believe everyone should do once in a while. What are things about yourself that you're proud of? What do you want to improve on? What would you like to achieve in the short and long term? These are a few questions I like to ask myself.
One of the best things I have learnt since my last post is to get rid of the negative people around you and surround yourself with people you truly like. Simple. To some, it may seem harsh, but it was one of the best things I did to get myself into a headspace where I am happy and confident to be myself. People should help bring light into your life - whether that be a friend that listens and makes you laugh, a colleague who you're excited to see at work or even a mentor who is helping you grow. If a person isn't bringing anything into your life, or worse, is treading all over you and bringing you down; GET RID OF THEM. You do not need this person. We already live in an overly stressed and judgemental society, no need to add the extra person for you to be weary about into your life.
'Preach what you love, don't bash what you hate'. This is something I am still trying to practice. I'm not quite sure where I first heard this from, but it did resonate with me. I've yet to really achieve this though. I am guilty of gossiping; and I know I could be a better person if I could omit it! I do try to consciously better myself as I grow and as critical as I may be at times, I want to be someone that people can associate with positivity.
'Til next time,
Remembering the abandoned blog that I created during high school; and after a good half an hour going through the email and password recovery process, I AM BACK.
It's nostalgic to read the posts I left behind. Unfortunately there were quite a few that were deleted when I last logged in, mostly because they contained photos of people that I wasn't sure if they'd still be okay with being published somewhere on the internet. Still, I wish I made the posts private instead of deleting them. Oh well. Really though, this blog has become a diary for myself, rather than an entertaining blog for others.
So fast forwarding about three and a half years since my last post, where am I now? I did, despite all the complaints and whining about post-grad, indeed finish the four years. I am currently working in...what I classify as the middle of nowhere - in rural NSW, miles away from home.
I used to only write when I was upset or wanting to vent, so being back here writing this now, hasn't put me into that mood as such, but has definitely placed me in a reflective and pensive mood.
Self-reflection. Something that I believe everyone should do once in a while. What are things about yourself that you're proud of? What do you want to improve on? What would you like to achieve in the short and long term? These are a few questions I like to ask myself.
One of the best things I have learnt since my last post is to get rid of the negative people around you and surround yourself with people you truly like. Simple. To some, it may seem harsh, but it was one of the best things I did to get myself into a headspace where I am happy and confident to be myself. People should help bring light into your life - whether that be a friend that listens and makes you laugh, a colleague who you're excited to see at work or even a mentor who is helping you grow. If a person isn't bringing anything into your life, or worse, is treading all over you and bringing you down; GET RID OF THEM. You do not need this person. We already live in an overly stressed and judgemental society, no need to add the extra person for you to be weary about into your life.
'Preach what you love, don't bash what you hate'. This is something I am still trying to practice. I'm not quite sure where I first heard this from, but it did resonate with me. I've yet to really achieve this though. I am guilty of gossiping; and I know I could be a better person if I could omit it! I do try to consciously better myself as I grow and as critical as I may be at times, I want to be someone that people can associate with positivity.
'Til next time,
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Unwelcomed Anticipation
The new year brings with it what is to hopefully be my second last year of uni. Frankly, I do not think that I would like to come back.
Most of us (me included), begin the new year with personal goals and an idea of what we'd like to achieve for the year. I tend to have about 4-5 goals a year, but this new year, my mind is superseded by one thought: uni. All because my friends in the health science field and our teachers have warned us - the second last year of the course is the most difficult. We need to know everything before we launch into our final clinical year. As if I didn't already find the past two year challenging enough already!
I can't help but stress about what is to come. I worry about how I am going to handle all of it - not just the readings, assignments and oral exams; but the clinic sessions too. Especially the clinical sessions. Last year I was so nervous at my first clinic session - and that was just a history and exam. This time, it's endo and fixed pros - things that you can permanently destroy.
My main goal of the year is to pass uni. Just two more years.
But.
I just don't want uni to dominate my whole life. I know it is a big part of my life right now, but I just need some balance. Or an attempt for some sort of balance. I don't know. Some fun time? Me time? I want to take in my surroundings more. To just enjoy what is around me. Like watching more sunsets or something (or people watch more?). And NOT through a camera lens. Sometimes I am too caught up in wanting to take the ultimate photo that I miss real life through my own eyes even though it is right in front of me.
So that is it,
Goals of the year:
1. Pass uni
2. Enjoy my surroundings through my own effing eyes.
okay.
Until next time :)
Most of us (me included), begin the new year with personal goals and an idea of what we'd like to achieve for the year. I tend to have about 4-5 goals a year, but this new year, my mind is superseded by one thought: uni. All because my friends in the health science field and our teachers have warned us - the second last year of the course is the most difficult. We need to know everything before we launch into our final clinical year. As if I didn't already find the past two year challenging enough already!
I can't help but stress about what is to come. I worry about how I am going to handle all of it - not just the readings, assignments and oral exams; but the clinic sessions too. Especially the clinical sessions. Last year I was so nervous at my first clinic session - and that was just a history and exam. This time, it's endo and fixed pros - things that you can permanently destroy.
My main goal of the year is to pass uni. Just two more years.
But.
I just don't want uni to dominate my whole life. I know it is a big part of my life right now, but I just need some balance. Or an attempt for some sort of balance. I don't know. Some fun time? Me time? I want to take in my surroundings more. To just enjoy what is around me. Like watching more sunsets or something (or people watch more?). And NOT through a camera lens. Sometimes I am too caught up in wanting to take the ultimate photo that I miss real life through my own eyes even though it is right in front of me.
So that is it,
Goals of the year:
1. Pass uni
2. Enjoy my surroundings through my own effing eyes.
okay.
Until next time :)
Thursday, May 30, 2013
P.S. ARE THERE SUCH THINGS AS WILD COWS?
POST SCRIPT (did you know that's what p.s. at the end of letters stand for?)
So I was genuinely wondering about this on my walk to uni a while back - are there such things as wild cows? - and I have now found out the answer...i think.
Apparently, you can do some 'wild cattle hunting safaris' in the country where ..well the name is quite self-explanatory. So i guess that kind of answers my question? The isn't an actual source that I found to answer my question, but it seems there are also wild bovine in some parts of India and Cambodia. They aren't exactly the same species as the domesticated cattle, but they look every similar and are close in the bovidae family.
Yeah..so..there's a random party fact for you. You can tell all your friends and they'd be all:
So I was genuinely wondering about this on my walk to uni a while back - are there such things as wild cows? - and I have now found out the answer...i think.
Apparently, you can do some 'wild cattle hunting safaris' in the country where ..well the name is quite self-explanatory. So i guess that kind of answers my question? The isn't an actual source that I found to answer my question, but it seems there are also wild bovine in some parts of India and Cambodia. They aren't exactly the same species as the domesticated cattle, but they look every similar and are close in the bovidae family.
Yeah..so..there's a random party fact for you. You can tell all your friends and they'd be all:
WHAAAAAAAAT?!
;)
one year and three days later...
Hi there.
Uneventfully, nothing has changed :(
Except I think I have become more lazy these days. It is now swot vac for semester one and the only thing that has remained consistent throughout it is my lackadaisical attitude towards school.
It's terrible! Usually when stuck in a rut, I think - oh, it's okay, I'll get over it in a week; but alas, 16weeks after the start of semester...I am still in said rut. I am just so over studying.
But really, I need to learn to better appreciate what I have and how much sacrifice - (not so much my own sacrifice, but my parent's) has been made for the life that I am leading. For I am certain I would not be where I am today without them.
We are living our adventure. That's how I should approach...life in general from now on. Life is an adventure - different pathways should be explored, leaps should be made and learning experiences built upon. Although easier said than done, we all really should at least try this :) (unless you are doing a research project for uni that you have absolutely zero interest in.)
until next time,
bye!
(I cannot think of an interesting, witty sign-off. that can be my goal for next post.)
Uneventfully, nothing has changed :(
Except I think I have become more lazy these days. It is now swot vac for semester one and the only thing that has remained consistent throughout it is my lackadaisical attitude towards school.
It's terrible! Usually when stuck in a rut, I think - oh, it's okay, I'll get over it in a week; but alas, 16weeks after the start of semester...I am still in said rut. I am just so over studying.
But really, I need to learn to better appreciate what I have and how much sacrifice - (not so much my own sacrifice, but my parent's) has been made for the life that I am leading. For I am certain I would not be where I am today without them.
We are living our adventure. That's how I should approach...life in general from now on. Life is an adventure - different pathways should be explored, leaps should be made and learning experiences built upon. Although easier said than done, we all really should at least try this :) (unless you are doing a research project for uni that you have absolutely zero interest in.)
until next time,
bye!
(I cannot think of an interesting, witty sign-off. that can be my goal for next post.)
Sunday, May 27, 2012
spiralling down down down
It is the beginning of swot vac and so far this semester, I have learned two main things: 1. the school is atrociously disorganised and 2. it is going to take me a gazillion years to pay back my uni debt. How depressing eh?
So, my new year's resolution about being 'more sociable and involved in uni' has semi been achieved :)
down side? the outrageously large amount of work that I have to catch up on. Despite the stresses which really do make me cry, it's so worth it (provided I don't flunk out...touch wood). I really love my people now...not that I didn't before, I just couldn't say I really belonged during undergrad. But man, I really, really cannot wait until I graduate. Just...7 and a bit more semesters to go...-.-
One thing that I really don't like nowadays is my lack of time for anything. I remember reading those Mary-Kate and Ashley books when I was younger, that series called 'So much to do, so little time'. I am pretty sure they did not come up with that concept, but regardless, it has never applied to me so much more than it does now. I don't see everyone that I want to catch-up with, and worse of all, I never have time to listen to music any more - ultimate sadface!! So for this reason, I think I have only being listening to two different artists throughout the whole semester (16 WEEKS!) - Switchfoot and kind of randomly, Jeff Buckley.
I spontaneously remembered something the other day - it was a quote, my favourite quote, that I used for an English class at school in year 10.
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sail. Explore. Dream. Discover."
-- Mark Twain
I love this quote. We were told to pick our favourite quotes in class and read them out the next lesson - this is the one that I chose. It is something that I wish I could live more by, but I promise myself, after uni is finished, I will!